Right off the bat I have a pretty good sense that this post is gonna be a long one at that. So if you’re in for the long run, go put the kettle on and come back with plenty of custard creams to tide you over. Or if you want to just appreciate the sheer joy on my face eating that beautiful scone at the Great British Cupcakery months ago, then by all means… now is your time.
As you’re reading this I’ll be either be halfway through deadlines stressed to the nines with a glass of Blossom Hill, or I’ll be extremely proud of myself for not leaving everything last minute. Probably the latter, probably still have wine either way. (Sorry I’ve been away for a while, I’m busy with deadlines as you can guess).
When I first started blogging I wanted to introduce myself properly – but I was always way too nervous. I was terrified of someone from home catching wind of what I was doing and telling everybody else and the whole thing was enough to put me off for quite a long time. I live in a small town, I’ve got a bunch of wonderful people in my life but the thought of someone reading this from my old school or somebody I work with used to make me want to vomit. For a brief period of time I decided to create a separate Instagram and went by a hilarious name that I’d never repeat again, just because I was so scared of opinions, imagine that!
Fast forward a few months and a few ‘fuck it’ moments later, Velvet Spring was born. Don’t get me wrong, there’s still things I wish I had the balls to do, I’d love to start my own YouTube channel but even now almost one year later the thought of somebody watching my videos, analysing my every move just totally freaks me out. I actually created one once and I was super proud of it, then my grandma *biggest fan* shared it on her Facebook page and I deleted it in seconds without a trace. And honestly, I know that there’s still going to be a bunch of people who will give it the ‘lol look at Jen, thinking she’s a blogger’ but that just doesn’t phase me anymore, I’m proud of what I do!
It’s those little moments that I love most about blogging. It’s the baby steps along the way that help you become the blogger you are. If you’d of told me a year back I’d be working with some of my favourite brands and actually attending blogging events by myself I’d of asked if you were feeling okay.
Don’t get me wrong and I’m sure we all know at times it’s overwhelming. You only have to mention the words SEO and Analytics to me and my brain goes into meltdown mode and I find myself reading blogging tips for hours. But it’s so worth it, I’ve met bloggers who are nothing but lovely and it’s that kind of community that will always encourage me to keep my butt in gear and do what I love. Shoutout to Curly and Wordy, It’s Lauren Victoria and Pint Size Pixie.
So, to round off a very wordy and nothing but good vibes post…
I’m going to admit a few home truth ‘blogger mishaps‘ here:
I leave bobbles around my wrists that ruin good photos / I almost always have chipped polish / my hair is pretty straw-like because I switch up my colour like there’s no tomorrow / I’ll have a blob of mascara somewhere around my eyelids without a doubt because I’m bloody useless at applying it / I’m adamant my face is wonky and it makes me very self-conscious so you’ll never see a front-facing photo. But it’s okay, I’m an imperfect blogger and that’s exactly the way I want to be!
Thanks for reading, J x