post grad problems

 

blogging-funk

ok, story time – grab the hobnobs.

picture this; it’s me your girl, sitting down at my desk with a hefty glass of iced coffee  (oat milk, obviously)  with the intentions of preparing for a deep post graduate MacBook cleanse. Waving adios to the abyss of university documents aptly named ‘finalfinalfinal’, or ‘print this jen, you idiot’ and feeling a tingly sense of freedom with every neglected safari tab I close.

Each shortcut I’m dragging to my trashcan begins to chip away at my desktop wallpaper. The man himself, Shia Lebouf, frozen in time mouthing ‘just do it’ at me. Which I’d somehow completely forgotten about; there to serve me last minute motivation, but sadly lived a neglected life buried in all of my deadline panic. then it hits me, like a bat out of hell *lol*… I’m free! no more 3 am meltdowns about my workload because I chose to invest all of my time scrolling on tinder. No more student finance bail outs for when times were hard after a blurry weekend that indefinitely ended with a garlic and chips love affair and no more university… period. fuck, now what?

 

Post Graduate Problems
the grieving process.

whilst you would think a normal 22 year old living in newcastle would turn to celebrating freedom with cheap pints and a boogie. I somehow let a quarter-life crisis creep through the door and went through what i can only describe as some sort of grieving process. i lived on my sofa until my student tenancy ran out, binge watched many a netflix series and conspiracy videos on youtube, i even took a penchant to listening to damien rice, the most angelic but equally as depressing musician ever.

at one point my flatmate stepped into my room and there i was, complete zombie. wrapped up in a duvet burrito with hobnob remnants all around me, wearing a onesie in the middle of july, sobbing to oblivion. it was like going through some sort of break-up (i actually was at the time too) and i just didn’t know what to do with myself – a living breathing bridget jones.

though, thankfully, my degree results were great. i secured a job pretty much instantly and i’m blissfully riding the 9-5 life off into the sunset as a search and content executive (just don’t ask me about those 6am starts). and whilst, life isn’t all that bad at the moment, i can’t shake the feeling like there’s something missing. you know that feeling when you open a packet of grab-size walkers and you’re met with a few shoddy crisps at the bottom of the pile and a whole lot of crisp dust and air? that’s how i feel. 

 

 

Post Graduate Problems

 

 

 

 

the light at the end of the tunnel.

 

i switched up my instagram theme a little (hated it instantly), i made the switch from blogger to wordpress (fancy, but equally too stressful to get my easily confused head around) and i even carved out a meticulous weekly plan for blog content and yep you guessed it. it was a big fat fail. my planner acted more as a big paper coaster for my coffee and biscuit crumbs.

but i’m still here,

just getting back into the groove and dusting off the old velvet spring cobwebs trying to find my chatty kathy self again. if my time spent self-loathing and feeling sorry for myself has taught me anything, it’s that my space on the internet is one i should be proud of. my blog alone landed me digital marketing interviews and even gave me a legs up at my current role – so i guess it isn’t all doom and gloom and i’m not giving up just yet.

 

ps. katie meehan took these photos and she’s a real talented egg, go have a little snoop on her blog. thanks for reading

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15 Comments

  1. jen
    August 5, 2018 / 3:12 pm

    you look bloody delightful!

    • jennifer12012
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:27 pm

      Thank you!

  2. August 5, 2018 / 5:45 pm

    Loved this Jen. It’s tough graduating, I did last month and it’s terrifying going out into the real world! I was so scared when I didn’t have a job, but thankfully my blog helped me get my role in digital marketing too! I’m sure you’ll get in the swing of things soon.

    Lucy | http://www.lucy-cole.co.uk

    • jennifer12012
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:27 pm

      Ah thanks Lucy! Xxx

  3. Lisa Autumn
    August 6, 2018 / 7:23 am

    I’ll be done with my degree in a couple of months and already feel terrified! This was so helpful girl!

    x Lisa | lisaautumn.com

    • jennifer12012
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:28 pm

      Ah you’ll be perfectly fine gal, don’t worry! Xxx

  4. August 6, 2018 / 4:30 pm

    I have one more year of university left and I love reading peoples thoughts and experiences of after they’ve graduated! I can’t believe how fast university goes!
    Chloe X http://chloelxuise.com

    • jennifer12012
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:28 pm

      Isn’t it crazy!? Thank you lovely xx

  5. August 7, 2018 / 11:43 am

    Love the layout and format of your blog! Looking forward to seeng more content from you in the future, if you have time haha! xxx

    • jennifer12012
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:28 pm

      Aww thank you so much! Xx

    • jennifer12012
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:29 pm

      Thank you lovely xxx

  6. August 14, 2018 / 7:50 pm

    These photos- you look gorgeous! I can’t wait for my post-graduate cleansing of my MacBook- saying goodbye to the dissertation especially!!
    Smart move moving to WordPress, I did it a couple months ago and really wish id done it sooner

    Shannon
    http://www.shaykennedy.me

    • jennifer12012
      Author
      August 17, 2018 / 9:31 pm

      Aww thank you so much lovely! Good luck with your diss xx

  7. August 26, 2018 / 8:50 am

    I should be done with all uni drama in few months and I’m honestly so scared of it. I’m SO glad it’ll all finally be over, but what next? You’re very lucky to find a job immediately. I just hope everything will fall into place and things will be OK haha
    Also, I can’t relate enough to 3am panic attacks haha

    xo Honey – blog Royal LifestyleTwitterInstagram

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